Well, since my last medical update I’ve had a few minor setbacks. Anyone that’s been on a medical journey can probably relate! I am generally optimistic, so when I start to feel better, I have the mindset that I’m on the road to full recovery. However, I am learning that healing often is a process and sometimes that full recovery is a longer process than I’d prefer. I am not sure if the Adrenal Fatigue has resurfaced (I thought I was doing well in this area, per Mayo dr.) or I’m dealing with medication side effects, but the last month has been rather up and down with fatigue invading some days again.
While I have experienced victories, such as joining a gym again, walking for an hour at a time, and adding even one ministry or fun event per week, the reality is that I also have days where I pay the price for my added activity and spend part of the weekend in bed recovering.
I’m learning a lot about what it means to be “in process.” Earlier this year I was focused on the phrase “be patient with the process” and more recently someone close to me added the perspective of “finding value in the process.”
I don’t know about you, but finding value in the process isn’t always second nature to me. Some days it doesn’t seem fair to still be battling sickness after a year of health issues, even if it’s “just” low-grade fatigue. But it’s in those moments where the victim mentality surfaces that I am reminded that God meets me in my pain, frustration, and disappointment and strengthens me to press on. It’s in those precious moments of raw emotion and vulnerability with Him that He shifts my perspective, reminds me how near He is, and I begin to see some of the treasures of the trial.
Whatever your trial, whatever your process, I pray that you have eyes to see the value in the journey. And on the days where we struggle to see the value, we can rest in the truth that God is with us in the process. And that promise may be all we need to press on.
GratefulOne 